I've ridden a roller coaster of emotions this last month as I've waited for the baby to come. I've now left the depression and anxiety behind and can see the humor in the situation. And I am now ok with being pregnant forever. When else will people give me free cookies after telling me how incredibly huge I am and staring at me like I've escaped from the Coney Island freak show?
Seriously though, I do feel better in some weird way. I guess maybe I've just gotten used to things being this way. My midwife came this morning to check on me and I'm now 5cm dilated. I find it all so strange and hard to believe because I remember how hard I had to work to go from 3-5cm with Spencer. It was 8 hours of steady, hard contractions. And here I am, already that far along with only a scattering of inconsistent (though sometimes strong) contractions to show for it.
I'm also showing some signs of pre-eclempsia, so she stripped my membranes again to try to get things moving. It's not enough yet to worry about induction, but delivering the baby would definitely help matters all around. And in the meantime, I'm to recline as much as possible since that lowers my blood pressure.
We haven't gotten around to buying any mirrors for our apartment yet. We just have a small mirror we hung in the bathroom to assist with hair brushing, shaving, etc. I took the mirror down last night so I could check out the stretch marks which are creeping at an alarming rate aound my belly. And you know what I discovered? I'm HUGE. Crazy big. I don't blame people for staring at me with wide eyed wonder when I go out for walks. Maybe I'll even stop giving them the evil stink eye in return.
Tick, tick, tick.
5 cm! Wow, that's great!
Holding a good thought for you.... hoping the baby hasn't ordered furniture and settled down for the long-haul yet. :)
Posted by: Abby | June 09, 2009 at 06:45 PM
You have such a good attitude! That is amazing -- good for you and for baby bean. Can't wait to meet him!
becky
Posted by: becky | June 10, 2009 at 03:56 PM
omg, you are going to have the baby in your pants. hee hee. waiting on bated breath out here! any day now.
Posted by: Sheri | June 11, 2009 at 11:22 AM